Peasants

drinking alcohol
some people can't stay away
fleeing bar losers

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My thoughts:

Do you drink often? Three times a week or so (and quite much)?
If so, when are YOU going to ADMIT you cannot handle alcohol?
Fact is, you shouldn't drink at all.
You're still fleeing.
Only losers drink.

It's better to dance.

Life update / note to self

I want to move to the south of Sweden. West coast, by the ocean. Much shorter winters, longer summers. Easy reasoning there. The ocean is calling me. I long for it. Here or in another country. I guess it will be an apartment, at first. But a cottage / house by the ocean is my goal. But financially the house part I can't do alone.

I want a new job. I'm done here; time to find something new. I am going to get it. I know I will. Determined. But doing what? Good question. I like direct customer relations (fuck telephones!), Human Resources, travelling, problem solving, analysis, photography, money, making people happy and a "freedom with responsibility" kind of work atmosphere. It's out there.

I want to share life with a woman who's done playing, in her later 20's or there around. Who knows what she want, who she is and pretty much where she's going. No more BS. A woman who knows what Love, Respect and Consideration is, and knows honest communication. A woman that chooses not to flee/give up, but to fight for what she want & thus KNOW it takes a lot of effort (L,R,C) to stay together. It's the only way. It helps if she's got no kids (yet) and is not obvious overweight. Know anyone suitable?

Becoming adult

lesson number one
self responsibility
or have no ones trust

Quote

you won't rid of me
as I haven't loved before
just sand in the wind

Affinity question

why should I invest
when life keep spitting on me
where is the answer

?

What was I to you?
A guy to lean on and sex,
then turn and good bye?

New dawn

I hear it calling
alone with the ocean view
a new place to live

On the road

even in the rain
I'm slowly reaching the point
where I smile again

Shot

my love was so strong
but yet that wasn't enough
I'm not bullet proof

Life

I did not choose this
to begin on a blank page
don't know what to write

Empty

angry with myself
empty vessel left adrift
feeling so worthless

Warning

a note to all men
if she dare not tell the truth
she isn't worth it

Sorrow

the black shroud burdens
wear it proudly 'til the day
my mind casts it off

Unfair

broken pieces can't
give your life back as it was
I bleed while you heal

Values

if you know respect
love and consideration
then I might love you

Woman!

how shall I dare say
I love you to another
after what happened

Pieces

for she had no choise
but regrettingly slice me
heart and soul in four

Post-Script

I loved what we had
you admittingly didn't
someday forgiven

Warriors option

some chooses to flee
I choose to fight for values
for love for what's me

Worthless

hoping he's worth it
apparently I was not
silence in ashes

Post-reflection

one day you'll see it
just how much you've hurt others
hope you regret it

In her eyes

rejective anger
cold emancipating fear
where love is no more

Discarded

today is a day
flowing tears form a river
I'm left but not her

End

I carry sorrow
mourn the loss of another
things not meant to be

Writing

in this long letter
I'm hoping to make a change
see us with new eyes